Stressing life. What is next for me…. ?? ://?
I’m only 12 years old, almost 13 on July 16th.
But my life is so stressful. I make everything harder then it really is.
Periods are one of the stressful things in my life..
A while ago on Aprill 22nd, worst day of my life, I think my period really did start. That has scarred me until today.
I had the chance to goto a waterpark which I was waiting for for about 1-2 years with a friend. But I didn’t go, too scared of periods. So that day when everybody was having fun, I was inside working on a math project.
At my neighbor’s sons graduation party, it was like a pool party, and I LOVE my neighbor’s pool. But I didn’t go in.
Because I was too scared of my period starting..
Since April 22nd, I’ve been wearing pads, 3-4-5 set of underware.
I started wearing my gymnastics shorts and swimming suit under my clothes incase my period might start, nobody would know, and it wouldn’t shock me.
But the thing is, no blood happend, well noticable through all this time.
But now to this day, I fear, it’s coming up, I already waisted a section of my childhood worrying. Stressing, fearing.
I worry about this everyday. And one of my friends is going to invite me to her birthday party in about 13 days, kayaking. In the water.
I bet i’d just miss it in fear of my period..
On the 16th of July, my birthday party is coming.
Pool Party. I don’t know what i’d do.. I’m just stressing.
Why is it so hard to be me!?!!?!?
I also stress on my bday party because I am going to invite 9 of my friends, so 10 including me I am going to invite, and hopefully all have a sleepover and fun.
But I’m nervous most of my friends would be out of town or on vacation.
I only know kinda that 6 of my friends can make it to this date.
I worry about this, too, what if my birthday all goes wrong!??!
What if my period starts because I stress so much!?!?!
I just feel useless, and I just want to go back in time and change everything, my eating habits, excersize plans, my life.
So I would not have a period..
I remember and I still do, I wish on eyelashes, times, wishes, stars, that "I wish I would never start my first peroid until I am 17 years old.".
17 is my lucky number, FROM THAT.
I just feel depressed it’s getting in the way of my gymnastics dreams, swimming, waterparks, fun, summer, beaches, vacations..
WHY CAN’T MY LIFE BE EASY!?????????????????????????
my heart hurts when I do this.
my heart hurts when I do this.
never kissed a guy other than my dad so no. I never had a boyfriend.
never kissed a guy other than my dad so no. I never had a boyfriend.
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July 8th, 2010 at 9:36 am
Well you are gonna start your period soon and this is all too so with your hormones and stuff and your body changing.
If your worried about your period and you don’t want too have one then what you can do is go and see your doctor and he/she can prescribe you a tablet that will reduce the period.
But if you want too go in the pool then don’t worry about going in just go ahead and do it, just wear a tampon nd you’ll be fine, nobody will know your on one.
Sadly we are want too change back time but no off us can we just got too Look forward and move on.
But i really wouldn’t let none of this depress you as it isn’t good too your health and you don’t want too have a mental breakdown and that is the first sign of depression and anyone at any age can have a mental breakdown.
All can i say too you is don’t worry about your periods just go out there and have fun and Enjoy your life,.
And there really isn’t anything wrong with you.!!!!!!!!!
If you would like too talk too me about anything i will try and help you best way i can just send a email too: maylover4eva@hotmail.co.uk
Just enjoy your life hunn (huggs).. xxxxxxx
Hope i helped you. xxx
July 8th, 2010 at 9:36 am
omgg calm downn seriouslyy!!!
i rememeber the first time i had my period and i was completely in a state of shockk
now that im 16 im not even scared anymore because before u get ur period u always get that feelingg and ur body always shows signs soo u can be prepared =)
soo my advice to you is plz stop thinking about this right now and go enjoy ur life before it passes by
hope i helped =)
July 8th, 2010 at 9:36 am
quit worrying your period isn’t coming for a while have you had the cramps if not then it’ll be a couple of years don’t wear all that clothes have fun when it starts you’ll know i’m 12 i didn’t worry i had the cramps for 2 years b4 i got my period stop worrying
July 8th, 2010 at 9:36 am
Darling listen, I am 13,too and I know how you feel but you just have to put that behind you. If you haven’t bled since April, then you probably don’t have your period. I know this might sound like a personal question but have you had sex? That might be what triggered it.
July 8th, 2010 at 9:36 am
First you need to calm down! Getting your period is a part of life you are just going to have to get use to. Getting stressed about it is not healthy either. Just except it and you will be fine. Periods usually come every 28 days from your last period. If you mark it on a calender you can keep track of it. As for going swimming and other water activities bring tampons. You also need to stop wearing all those clothes. You will be able to feel that you started your period before anyone can tell. I know this is a very awkward time in your life but you can make it though it. Stop stressing out about it and enjoy your Summer. Happy Birthday and Good Luck!
July 8th, 2010 at 9:36 am
your making harder then it needs to be. honey every woman in history has had a cycle. or a million. im sure that there is at least one girl in the water park that is on her cycle. how do you know your friend wont be on her cycle during her kayack trip? your life is easy. you need to calm down. if you want to live your life in fear of something that comes as natural as breathing to women then you wil live a very lonely secluded life. i swim every day. i get my cycle every month. you just need to keep track of your cycle. when it gets regular you need to watch it so you know when its going to start. you need to calm your butt down. do you think that no one will understand that your on your cycle? that your the only one in the world who has a cyce every month? guess what? there are pro swimmers and divers that are women. they bleed every month too. your not the only on. and really if thats the only thing you have to stress about then your life is DAMN easy. you should be DAMN happy. when you lose your job and are evicted out of your apartment and forced to live with your parents when they hate you for leaving in the first place then you can complain about not having an easy life. oh and you still havent got a job after 3 months of hunting cuz your "over qualified" because you got paid more then min wage to start at you last job. then you can complain to me about a "hard" life.
July 8th, 2010 at 9:36 am
Hey honey. It sounds like you have a bit of an anxiety problem. Have you talked to you mom about this? I think you should go see a doctor I know it sounds bad but medication really helps.. I went on medication when I was 14 and it worked wonders for me. Also.. please don’t skip fun times in your life because you are scared about your period. I had the same problem and I regret it so bad now because I didn’t get to experience the fun things during my youth. I’m pretty sheltered now too and i’m almost 24. You really should try to get some help… if that isn’t an option just face your fears… it will get better I promise. Remember worry is a very useless emotion… don’t skip out on fun these are some of the best ages of your life.