Can anyone please help me?
I am 20 years old and I have no clue what I want to do for the rest of my life. I have goals but they are not the type that make me money in fact they do just the opposite. I have served in the US Army Infantry where I was shot and discharged by evil SGTs. I was given an award letter from my congressman over it but that is it I even had to give up my benefits.
I have attend college and while I pulled a 4.0 with ease it just isn’t something I enjoy at all I hate wasting time and I need to see a return on my efforts in real time not delayed.
I am 6′2 150 lbs and in great shape. I love to write novels and I have written 4 so far but I do not publish them for they are not worthy of it. I love to be active more than anything.
I love the outdoors and animals and going on camping trips and kayak trips are the best. I once made a 9 foot tall circular hut out of trees I cut down and stuck in the ground in this trench I made then filled it with cement so that one foot of the wood was firmly in the ground.
I have built many things out of wood including a gun cabinet with drop shelves that can raise or lower 4 feet by moving the pegs and metal lip.
I have been jobless for 4 months now and finding work in my small town and I do mean small town is hard. On top of that most jobs around here pay only 7.15 an hour.
I want to travel and see the world, I have traveled the US by train which was fun except the three days without showering you have to deal with.
I can’t re-enlist even though I am medically fit to serve, the Army has closed my window for Re-Enlistment until I change my code. I could easily do this by submitting the Pentagon’s report on the investigation that occurred on my behalf at Ft. Benning GA. But that could take at least 2 months to a year to fix so again I will lay idle for up to a year.
I have moved once already after the Army to San Fran where I was approached to be a model for abercrombie and fitch. I did that for a while but bills were too much and I wasn’t making enough to be comfortable.
What on earth am I to do? Lately I just lay in my bed and don’t want to get up and when I get to my computer I usually have nothing I want to do so I go back and lay down, its sad. I only eat 500 calories a day now cause I have no money and I am trying to make whats left in my cupboard last. Which sadly is now down to 12 packages of Ramen Noodles. I had a can opener and it broke and now I am without that and so my food supply has dropped to half.
So I will leave asking what on earth am I to do?
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July 6th, 2010 at 9:38 am
You dwell a lot on everything that is wrong or troublesome for you. There are literally hundreds of millions of young men who would like to have your good health, similar opportunities you have before you, and the prospects for the future that may await you. Go to a community college and ask to speak to a guidance counselor. You can take an interest inventory test to help give you direction. It is a multiple choice test. You do not get a grade for it, rather it just helps you see where to best direct your energies. That would be a good start.
July 6th, 2010 at 9:38 am
I hope this helps. First your food situation try a food cupboard. Ask around or try second hand store to see if you can get a can opener for cheap. Talk to your doctor you could have depression. Y ou may have to take a 7.15 an hour job for awhile also you said you like to build things and animals. Consider back to school for carpentry or something with animals construction. You have the skills and enjoy this you just need a certifacte behind you to get a good job. Your are young yet. Please do this well you still can. It may mean a few tough years but it will get better. All the best. I will pray for you. Sorry for my spelling but I’m in a hurry. I hope this helps.