Choose And Buy The Right Old Town Kayak.

i understand if you dont wanna read all this cause its so long. but i need help.

so i grew up in a perfect family. i lived in a peaceful place in canada. i had a wonderful older brother who i looked up to. i had a beautiful older sister who loved me & i had 2 parents who loved each other. we were perfect. we had money, cars, a beautiful home, a beautiful town, luck, life, etc.. we had everything.
my sister went to work in germany when she was 22 in 2006. she called me every night but i refused to talk to her cause it made me cry talking to her since i missed her so much. i avoided her pretty much. it would be more of a surprise when i saw her come home. but in February 2006, she drowned in a kayak training accident. she was missing for a month and while my parents were over in germany looking for her i stayed with my parents, giving everyone hope and positivity. bad things didnt happen to our family and tiffany (my sister) was soo good of a person to die at such a young age. but she did and life began to fall apart for us.
my brother started getting in fights at his high school, got into ufc classes, starting drinking, had many management classes and my parents are always blaming him for so many things. my parents have both been diagnosed with depression and my mom hasnt gone to work for 4 years. my dad is a carpenter so its hard for him to get money in the winter times but he tries. as for me, im alone. all my best friends have left me. im not beautiful. my family is not even getting by. & now, instead of being known as the perfect family, we’re known as the family who lost everything. i find its harder to be the one watching people fall apart then to actually be the one whos doing it.
i hate my mom. sits on her ass all day & i understand shes sad but she still has kids to raise and my father is the only one trying.
i miss my old life. i miss my brother and most of all.. i miss my best friend. i miss the parents i use to have. and there has been times that ive been so alone that i just want to end my life cause it seems so pointless.
i loved my sister so much and now that i think about it.. she was the only thing that made our family perfect.
i used to be a really big catholic but now that tiff’s gone.. i dont believe. i dont believe because.. what kind of horrible thing would take such a wonderful girl from this earth and turn a beautiful family into hell? but the weird thing is.. i still pray. I dont believe in god anymore.. but i believe in HER.
i dont want to talk to my parents about this and i hate talking to people that dont understand. but i need help or im afraid im going to do something stupid.
i need help.. if theres a website i can go to to talk to cancellers.. that would be great but i dont like talking over phone and in person cause im really emotional.
even if whoever is reading this right now and you think that you yourself can help me.. i have nothing to lose.

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